Almost Friday

So...it's been a while, huh? It's been a crazy week actually! My uncle and his family flew in on Tues.......all SIX of them! Yes, SIX!! Six to add to our 5! (plus the animals) So yeah the house is packed! That's why it's been awhile!

I don't think it's right to be in my room on the computer when they are out in the living room they are here visiting, so I should hang out with them, right?!? I just don't know. It's not like they are doing much just watching TV it seems and since 2 of the kids are young they are watching cartoons, and if you know me, you know that there are few cartoons that entertain me! Don't get my wrong there are some cartoons that I like, but for the most part they are pointless!

So anyway, that's why it's been so long....So I worked with him again the other night! I just don't know. It's so annoying, because all the other nights that he doesn't work with me it's slow, and I can talk to the other host's that are there, but when I work with him, it's always busy so there's not much time to joke around and talk...It's really frustrating! I just don't know.

I haven't gotten to go out again with everyone after work, it's been so busy lately. I was actually talking to one of the girls about it tonight. She has just started dating this guy and she was telling me about him, and then we got on the subject about me and "this guy". I was telling her a lot of the situation and how I feel and how this "other person" was saying we should go out, but I told her just like that, I didn't say names, or even that it was someone that she knows, and that she does work with him too! I just wanted to see what she thought of the situation. It's just all frustrating, because there are so many circumstances, I just dont know! I mean I thought about talking to Alexis about it because she knows the situation but I'm just not sure if I should say something to her because I don't want something to happen and then him find out and then I dunno....I guess it's just they whole looking stupid, and rejection thing!

"Tia" was so sweet though, she's like "Jessica, you are so pretty, I don't see why he wouldn't want to go out with you". She told me I should just try and see if we could hang out. I just don't think I know him that well, ya know? Geeze, I make such a big deal about it!AHHHHHHH...I hate this....

Ok, ya know what...I know what I need to do, I just need to give "it" to the Lord and see what happens. He knows the wills of my heart and if it's his plan than, we'll see! I mean thinking about it over and over is just basically worrying and I know that I'm not supposed to worry so I'm just going to "give it" to Him!

I have to finish this micro take-home test. It's due Mon. night I'm almost done but I just need to do it, and get rid of it, so I don't have to think about finishing it anymore! Like I said before I feel obligated to hang out with the family, so I've just been putting off being alone so that I could so the freakin test! Well, I am glad that I had a lot of it done before they got here!

We are supposed to all be going to one of the parks on Sat. (I think) but I'm not quite sure what we're going to do. My dad and my uncle have to think for a long time before they make final decisions, and that it fine, but I am a planner, and I need to know (for myself) what is going on. I have to have an idea of what we are going to do! It's kind of annoying not knowing for sure! But that's ok, that's how they do things, think and think and think of a simple answer (to make sure it's a good one) and then they have thought about it so long, it's the AM of when we are going to do stuff. That's just not how I work. I have a tentative schedule always planed out, that's just me!

I'm not obsessive over it though, I just have to have an idea in my head of what we are going to do or what I'm doing and if plans change than fine, but I just have to make sure things get done, and if I'm not able to plan, then it's weird. I'm just a planner/organizer (whatever you wanna call it) I'm a Virgo, I think it comes with the "name" (not that I really go by the whole astrology thing but...there does seem to be some similarity in people born around the same time and all.)

Well anyways, I have class in the AM I should probably get going. Oh yeah did I tell you that Meg has to share my room, until my cousins and everyone are gone, they are staying in her room. And we all know that Megan and I have diff feelings on how "neat" rooms should be (kinda like the whole bday thing I was talking about) So she's sleeping on an air mattress on my floor, it's definitely not comfortable, I mean it's "my space" (I don't mind sharing) but it is a little inconvenient, since she brought a lot of crap with her...She's so funny, she acts, like she can never go in her room, HELLO....her room is across the hall! There's just random things laying around my room and I'm like Megan is it really necessary to have all this not essential stuff in here, she was like "Well, what if I need it?" Oh well, what do you say!? She cracks me up!

We all have to give a little when we have family come and stay, that's fine with me, I understand! I love my family, it's one of the most important things to me, good thing too, since it's such a BIG ONE!! Ok...well, i'm really gonna go now! Since it's technically almost tomorrow!
--I'm out!