Weird Dream...

It's been along time since I've woke up and remembered dreaming during my sleep. But when I woke up this AM I knew I had been dreaming.

The dream was kinda weird, because the parts of the dream that I remember, I know why I dreamt it. You know dreams, it was a whole bunch of different stuff happening, I don't remember it all now but the main parts.

One of the main parts was that the neighbor that lives behind my house and to the right, house was on fire. I know that I dreamt about that because I had been talking to one of Andrew's (my bro) friend and his house actually burnt down in Sept. after Hurricane Frances.

Then the other part was about "that guy" that I've been talking about. He was there just hanging out with me and I remember at one point in the dream we went somewhere and did something but I didn't remember what that was when I woke up. But the especially weird part of it was that, I remember being able to just see his face and he said " I'm going to marry you." It was really weird to say the least! Wonder what that means in the "dream dictionary"!

I guess he was in the dream because I had been talking to him earlier that night. So I dunno, it was a weird dream. I should've wrote down what I remembered when I first got up but I was too busy, getting ready for the shower!

Oh yeah, the shower went great! There were so many more people there than we expected! Apparently it's not the "cool" thing to do, to RSVP anymore. So there were like way more people than called. But it was good. There was just enough food, everyone seemed to have fun! Steph enjoyed it too! It was crazy because Lacie was there (one of my friends from middle school) and I haven't really kept in touch with her that much. I just see her at Tara's son's Bday parties, and Steph's son. So it was neat to see her. She is pregnant with her 3rd too! It's crazy...all my friends are married and have babies! Wonder when that will be me?!? I guess in God's time! He knows what's best for me!

Well that's it!
--Cya!

Now what??????

Ok, so first of all before I get to the "Now what", I must say that Thanksgiving was great. We ate earlier than normal because A. had to work, but it was delicious!!! We don't normally spend the entire lunch/dinner saying things we are thankful for, I mean we say a couple things, but I think that, it's pretty much all we did was so all the things we were thankful for.

This year (especially) we have so much to thank God for!! From my brother's issues, the hurricanes, the hurricane damage, ELECTRICITY(never thought to be thankful for that until this year!!!) Wyatt's birth, the issues dealing with that, school, just so much. We were all just talking about the different things, and of course if you know my family you know that it did take a funny turn!!(of course we were still meaning it, but it was silly stuff at one point) But it was nice.

I'm so thankful we are closed @ the restaurant on Thanksgiving & Christmas day!! It was nice to not have to work. Last night I had to work...ok Friday night in this town at a restaurant, you normally have to wait awhile(atleast 60 mins+) to be seated...All I can say is that wasn't the case last night......It was SO SLOW!!! It was fun though, we were all kinda just hanging out and talking....

Actually now that I think about it last year the day after Thanksgiving wasn't very busy either, people must have been eating left-overs or something!

Ok...now that brings me to my "now what"....Ok, so like I said I worked last night. Well, I ended up working with that guy I had been talking about in some of my previous posts, well...lately I have just been like whatever, kinda blowing the whole thing off because I just wasn't sure what was going on with the entire situation, (ya know if he was interested or what). So last night since it was slow I got to talk to him a lot more than I usually do...since we pretty much had nothing better to do.

It was nice. He was talking to me about all this different stuff, about wanting to move out of this freakin town, (I'm with him on that one!) and stuff like that. He seemed almost like he was kinda "perusing" something...(I guess that's what you could call it) But now what?? I just really don't know. A couple days ago it seemed like there was something/someone else that was interesting him, and then all of a sudden last night he was talking to me about this party he went to, and how there was a couple other people we work with there. And then he some how (I don't remember how he said it unfortunately) but he said something about if I would ever go to something like that...or you should've came or something to that effect. I was like yeah I guess I'd go sometime..you'll have to call and let me know. But then we were working so if like we get interrupted so it's hard to finish things (ya know what I mean).

I just don't know about the whole thing. I'm confused! I mean he's really sweet and he's nice, and he messes (jokes) around with me, I just don't know.

Oh yeah...at one point during the night (i think it when he was talking about going to that party) he said something like " Yeah, I heard you don't like hanging out with me"...and I was like "What are you talking about?" I never said that! (once a few of us including him all went out after work together) And then I was like "If you are serious that is a bunch of junk because I never said that..." Then finally he did his little "ok-fine-I-can't-keep-this up- laugh and was like "nahh...I'm just joking". So I dunno.

He was talking to me about how he's single now and doesn't have a girlfriend, and it's weird because it's been a long time since he's been single and all this stuff, so I'm just listening. I just don't know what to make of that...I mean, is he just telling me this or does that mean he's trying to be like "HEY I"M SINGLE!!!" so I know or what?!??????? I'm so naive I just dont know how to take stuff like that.

And the thing is I'd be like here's my number call when ever everyone goes out or something, but then I don't wanna look stupid, or something, and I don't wanna seem pushy. Because every time something interrupts us at that point. I'm just not good at that. I mean geeze, all the hosts have their #'s in this book at work, he could get it if he wanted geeze, that would make it easier for me!! :o) But then that would look weird if he called" "Hey I'm calling you I found your # in the book." (kinda stocker-ish)

I just dont know! Well, I better get going. I have to pick up some of the rest of the food for Steph's baby shower tonight. I'll be back on later, because there's some other stuff I need to "vent" about, oh and I gotta tell you my dream!!! Oh yeah, I just pray that M.C. will bring Wy over tonight, he were going to take him to get his 1st picture with Santa(how cute is that!)
--Later

A random thought....

.....that I decided deserved "it's" own post:


The Passion of The Christ..... What an amazing movie. I have only seen it once. Our church rented out a movie theatre one Sun. after it got out and we had our Sunday AM service in the theatre with praise music and then watched the movie. So many people have talked about how blaspamiss it was and how horrible it was. Honestly, as a Christian, I cryed when I watched that movie. I have never cried over anything like that in my life. They were nears of happines/saddness/greiving(I can't even describe it). Was just sitting there watching and tears were just flowing down my face. Watching that movie to me was not to just "go see a movie" it was an experiece. It showed me with great detail the story I've heard so many times, and yet it was the first time I had ever really understood it. I mean yeah sure before I knew Jesus died on the cross for our sins, and I understood that but not to the amount that I understand it now. It wasn't about the actors or anything I honestly didn't even see actors there it was just the words and everything put together.....Amazing! The whole movie is in subtitles and I didn't have a problem at all figuring out what was going on. It was as if it were in speaking English. Needless to say I just pray for those that don't understand the impact that this movie had on me and on many that I know. Those that say that it is blasphime and say that they could never see it(many I have personally talked to, some very close to my heart) Are missing something. There is a reason that they are saying they don't want to see it. I honestly believe that satan is feeding them these stupid ideas and I just pray for them that one day they will (too) understand the true meaning on having a personal relationship with Jesus. Because in the end....that's what's going to matter, not what kind of car you drive, how much money you have, not what kind of grades you made in school, not how "good" you are, BUT if you know Jesus personally and have confessed to him that you know you are a sinner and you give that to him. He did to the cross for your sins, not His, so that we could live eternally in Heaven with God.

FREAKIN' ANNOYING.......

Ok, so I started a post like 15 mins ago and when I was about 3 "paragraphs" down, the FREAKIN POWER WENT OUT! I hate when that happens. It just went off and right back on....hey...don't get me wrong I'm not complaining but it was frustrating!!! I know as good as anyone that dealt with the three hurricanes that came through here, that living without power....SUCKS!!! We were out for a week (including all the days through each hurricane) not to mention the times it would go out for an hour or two while they were trying to repair stuff. So I know how it is....I'm thankful(just in time for thanksgiving :o) that we were only out for that long, but you don't know how wonderful the things that we do everyday are until you can't do about 90% of them...(ya I think I'm going to invest in one of those Backup things for your computer so that I don't have to loss EVERYTHING when the power goes out!!)

Ok now, to what I was posting about BEFORE the power went out...

So I have just been chillin (now that I can) and I was looking around at all the different blogs and it got me thinking about some stuff:

• There are so many different blogs on here and it's just really cool to look at them all. Some people really get into to it, they really "deck-out" their blog. They are so technical and stuff. I have no clue about how to do any of that stuff so I just stay real simple...I mean maybe I'd add some stuff if I knew how, but since I don't I'm fine. Some of the blogs though geeze....I wonder if they have ever heard of the saying "Too much of a good thing, is bad". But still I'll give "it" to them in saying atleast they know HOW to do that!
• So I was reading this guys blog and it was a great blog! He is such a good writer/blooger/whatever you want to call him....But it was great. The way he wrote about stuff was so cool, very entertaining.... And it wasn't just about boring things, he had some very valid points, it was very informative, intriguing, beneficial stuff! So that was cool...
• Another thing....I was on this one blog and it said something about Australia, and of course my mind went to ONE thing, my cousin...See my Aunt, got pregnant she was like 20. She wasn't married, and the guy was a jerk about it. So she decided that the best thing for her to do was give the baby up for adoption. I don't really know much details, since I was like 2 when that happened. He was adopted from a "nice Christian family" that lived in Australia (I put that in quotes because that's what I was told..I don't know for sure so I can't say...not that I don't believe it, but I just don't really have any proof...ya know). He was born like 3 months after my brother, so they are just about the say age. I've always wanted to meet him, and I'm sure my aunt probably would too, I've never really talked to her about it. I know that she still thinks about him, and that whenever she hears anything about Australia she thinks of him too! Ya know I should really talk to my mom about that whole thing again sometime, the stuff I know now, is just stuff I remember from when I was young.....and after all who knows what I could learn about it! I was 17 before I FINALLY put 2 & 2 together and figured out that in order for my Nanny to have my mom @ 17 she would've had to be 16 when she was pregnant...and why else would she have gotten married and had my mom so soon, if she wasn't pregnant first?!?????? To this day I STILL can't believe that I didn't figure it out sooner. Not that it really matters, that's just my point, you never know what you don't know....
• It's so amazing to me and kind of incomprehensible on how so many people don't believe in God. And "aren't religious". I just sit and think and it amazes me how complex everything is in this world and it blows my mind, to think of how everything is...I just don't see how people can not wonder how all this happened. I know I have believed in God/The Bible/Jesus since...well forever (that I remember) and odviously I understand more now that I'm older and make my own decisions but that is what gets me the most. That so many "grown" people just live, and don't even seem to care that it's not about just living here on Earth. It comforts me in knowing that I will live in eternity with God in a perfect place (nothing like this place) and sadness me to know that there are people that are going to choose to never have a relationship with Jesus and won't spend eternity with him. That just gives me such an urge to try and "Win one more for Jesus"(Purpose Driven Life). I am not perfect by any means, but I want to live everyday for the Lord, and be more like him. Like his example he set for us.
• That brings me to another subject that I thought about when I was looking through the blogs, The Passion of The Christ. What an amazing movie. I have only seen it once. Our church rented out a movie theatre one Sun. after it got out and we had our Sunday AM service in the theatre with praise music and then watched the movie. So many people have talked about how blasphemies it was and how horrible it was. Honestly, as a Christian, I cried when I watched that movie. I have never cried over anything like that in my life. They were nears of happiness/sadness/grieving(I can't even describe it). Was just sitting there watching and tears were just flowing down my face. Watching that movie to me was not to just "go see a movie" it was an experience. It showed me with great detail the story I've heard so many times, and yet it was the first time I had ever really understood it. I mean yeah sure before I knew Jesus died on the cross for our sins, and I understood that but not to the amount that I understand it now. It wasn't about the actors or anything I honestly didn't even see actors there it was just the words and everything put together.....Amazing! The whole movie is in subtitles and I didn't have a problem at all figuring out what was going on. It was as if it were in speaking English. Needless to say I just pray for those that don't understand the impact that this movie had on me and on many that I know. Those that say that it is blaspheme and say that they could never see it(many I have personally talked to, some very close to my heart) Are missing something. There is a reason that they are saying they don't want to see it. I honestly believe that satan is feeding them these stupid ideas and I just pray for them that one day they will (too) understand the true meaning on having a personal relationship with Jesus. Because in the end....that's what's going to matter, not what kind of car you drive, how much money you have, not what kind of grades you made in school, not how "good" you are, BUT if you know Jesus personally and have confessed to him that you know you are a sinner and you give that to him. He did to the cross for your sins, not His, so that we could live eternally in Heaven with God.

Ok well that just about wraps up my random thoughts for now...(well not all of them but we'd be here forever wouldn't we...:o) yes I know at times they were VERY random...but hey what can I say....

--BuhBye...God Bless

Thanksgiving Eve....

Wow, so today was great! I didn't have class (well technically I was supposed to go to my History class, because it was a stupid "Hurricane Make-up day" but he said he understood if we "had plans" and we would just be watching a movie, so if we didn't go then that was ok with him...So I didn't go!) I slept in...Not too late just til around 9:00, I could've slept longer but I wanted to be somewhat productive.

So I did some laundry I cleaned my room completely, Meg FINALLY got all of her stuff out of my room so I went "crazy" cleaning(let's just say...I'm more neat than her) I dusted EVERYTHING, vacuumed, washed my sheets, cleaned out my desk and my "junk drawer". So anyway it's nice and clean in here...I LOVE IT! I know I sound like a freak but it actually makes me feel better to be in here now that it's clean!!

Other than cleaning I pretty much just hung out around here today! Alexis wanted to come over so that I could finally show her Shrek 1&2 (yeah I know she's never seen it...crazy huh?) but I told her we'd have to do it another time, I was just gonna relax. So we were joking around about "penciling" her in sometime.

I love the holidays...it's Thanksgiving eve and I can't wait for tomorrow! haha...I just re-read that sentence and don't I sound like a pig!?! It's not that, but come on you have to hand it to me...Thanksgiving meals are the best!!! I was thinking about if/when I "grow-up and have a family I don't know if I could ever have my own thanksgiving meal. I mean I know I would probably by then do it, but my mom makes the BEST Thanksgiving meal, I just don't know if I could duplicate it.

So tomorrow will be great. It's actually just going to be our family...the five us(no extended family). We have to eat earlier than we usually do, because my bro has to work at like 3 or something like that...that's ok I just won't eat breakfast!

Man...I'm watching/listening to Reno911 right now...it's the funniest show EVER!! It cracks me up! Andrew bought the 1st season on DVD I can't wait for the next season to be on DVD! It's great! The things they come up with...geeze it's funny!!

Man...ya know it's great that I have no school until Mon. but I was looking at my calendar and I gotta study for a micro test for mon. and then I should probably start working on my final essay that's due the last day of class in History...I don't even know what I'm writing it on, it just has to be on something during the Cold War...so I dunno, but I have to use like 5 different (or something like that) sources. Which would normally be fine, but only 2 can be online...I hate going to the library for that reason...so I dunno..I just better start that soon! Thank God it's almost over...Ya know what though, I just better get everything done, we only have like 2 1/2 wks left...Wow that's crazy!!

So...I dunno what to do...I really am tired of working at the restaurant, I mean I like working with someone the people I work with and all but I'm just sick of it! I just won't something not so...I dunno hectic...I guess. But I'm just not sure how another job would be with school. I guess I'll just have to see what God has for me.
--Later

A break!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!

Wow...It's been crazy, but it's actually just the five of us at the house again! Now don't get me wrong, it was great and all having all the family visiting, but "alone time" is a great thing too! Especially after the craziness with the hurricanes and the baby situation!

So lets see....On sat. We went to IOA, it was a lot of fun! You wouldn't believe how empty it was. Well not empty but basically considered the amount that was there the last time I went. (it must be out of season or something) The longest wait time for a ride that we rode on was 30 mins!! Yep!! ONLY 30 mins! It was crazy, considering this summer, 30 mins was probably the least amount of time that we waited!

Just hung around the house on Sun, after church...well at church we had a cookout and the ministry fair, it was pretty cool! We played a couple board games that night but not too much.

Then on Mon. I took Sarah, and my aunt to "O-town" to the Florida Mall and we went to Build-a-Bear and Sarah and I built a bear! It was so cute. I had never done it before, just heard about it. It was great! So amazing how many outfits you can pick out and all the accessories and stuff. And all the different "skins". I made a bear for Wy. It has a little T-shirt that says Baby's First Christmas! and then I put a bear of flannel (Christmas looking) boxer shorts on him and on the elastic, instead of saying "Joe Boxer", it says "Bear Boxer". I thought that was so cute! So he turned out cute!

Then we went over to Target. I had to get a gift for Steph's shower that we are giving her on Sat. It's all pink stuff! It's really cute! I just got her some receiving blankets, towel, washcloths, socks, basically little things I know she will need (from seeing what he had to get for Wyatt!) And then Sarah and my aunt picked out some stuff to give Andrew/Wyatt for him. They got him 2 outfits and some bibs and this cute little dog (so soft!) that plays soft music when you pull it. It's cute. One of the outfits that they got him was a red outfit that says Baby's First Christmas. We are planning (God willing) on taking his Christmas pictures in that outfit and with his bear! It's gonna be cute!

Today I was supposed to watch Nathan for Tara, but they ended up not needing me so I just cleaned up around the house. Did some laundry and tired to straighten up for mom so that she didn't have to be too stressed when she got home. I wrote m a note and A too, to see if they would help with laundry or something to make it easier for her!

And of course m took it like she usually takes things you as her and got all annoyed and throw it away. I don't really know exactly how she reacted to it, since I was at work, but from was she told me like literally 2 seconds before she went to sleep she threw it away because she was made because "she worked (watched Jordan) all day and then came home and "I" told her to help. I was like HELLO M.... I guess you see how mom feels! She does that every day....goes to work, comes home, makes YOU dinner, helps you with your problems, go to the store etc.......(this could go on forever) and she just doesn't get it. I just was like whatever and walked away because I've definitely learned that if Megan doesn't want to listen then SHE WON"T and no matter what you are saying if she doesn't want to hear it SHE WON'T! And YOU ARE WRONG!

Yes it is quite annoying, because she gets more defensive then understanding anytime you do anything like that. So anyway....I just pray that she understands that I wasn't being mean, I didnt even think of my note being a bad thing, all I thought about at the time, was mom not being stressed and not having to do too much. But of course I could only do so much and I had to go to work! I told her that too! I was like Megan, I worked here all day cleaning up and stuff (for atleast 2 hrs.) and then went to my work! It's not like I asked you to do anything I didnt do! And of course she threw is the whole...You're older than me thing...oh geeze....(PLEASE) I'm sorry but that's just LAME! There are 10 year olds that do laundry, dishes, and etc. SHE COULD TOO! Because she's a lot older than that!

AHHHH it just drives me crazy! Ok, well I think that's it for now. Oh yeah Wy was here when I got home from work! He's so adorable! I gave him a bath! He did so good too! It was so funny I went to take him out and right before (I mean literally like 1 sec ) I took him out the started to pee in the port-a-tub! It was so funny! I was like...well thanks a lot for doing that NOW since if you would've waited a sec. it would've been ALL over your aunt Jessica!

So that was fun! I never gave him a bath before! I know he liked it! He loves me! :o) Ok for real I'm going now! I have to go take some towels out of the dryer and switch it with the sheets that are in the washer!(would've been nice is SOMEONE would've helped...) but oh well. I don't mind it's only 12:41am! Ok I need to just stop! Cya later!
--"Peace out"

Almost Friday

So...it's been a while, huh? It's been a crazy week actually! My uncle and his family flew in on Tues.......all SIX of them! Yes, SIX!! Six to add to our 5! (plus the animals) So yeah the house is packed! That's why it's been awhile!

I don't think it's right to be in my room on the computer when they are out in the living room they are here visiting, so I should hang out with them, right?!? I just don't know. It's not like they are doing much just watching TV it seems and since 2 of the kids are young they are watching cartoons, and if you know me, you know that there are few cartoons that entertain me! Don't get my wrong there are some cartoons that I like, but for the most part they are pointless!

So anyway, that's why it's been so long....So I worked with him again the other night! I just don't know. It's so annoying, because all the other nights that he doesn't work with me it's slow, and I can talk to the other host's that are there, but when I work with him, it's always busy so there's not much time to joke around and talk...It's really frustrating! I just don't know.

I haven't gotten to go out again with everyone after work, it's been so busy lately. I was actually talking to one of the girls about it tonight. She has just started dating this guy and she was telling me about him, and then we got on the subject about me and "this guy". I was telling her a lot of the situation and how I feel and how this "other person" was saying we should go out, but I told her just like that, I didn't say names, or even that it was someone that she knows, and that she does work with him too! I just wanted to see what she thought of the situation. It's just all frustrating, because there are so many circumstances, I just dont know! I mean I thought about talking to Alexis about it because she knows the situation but I'm just not sure if I should say something to her because I don't want something to happen and then him find out and then I dunno....I guess it's just they whole looking stupid, and rejection thing!

"Tia" was so sweet though, she's like "Jessica, you are so pretty, I don't see why he wouldn't want to go out with you". She told me I should just try and see if we could hang out. I just don't think I know him that well, ya know? Geeze, I make such a big deal about it!AHHHHHHH...I hate this....

Ok, ya know what...I know what I need to do, I just need to give "it" to the Lord and see what happens. He knows the wills of my heart and if it's his plan than, we'll see! I mean thinking about it over and over is just basically worrying and I know that I'm not supposed to worry so I'm just going to "give it" to Him!

I have to finish this micro take-home test. It's due Mon. night I'm almost done but I just need to do it, and get rid of it, so I don't have to think about finishing it anymore! Like I said before I feel obligated to hang out with the family, so I've just been putting off being alone so that I could so the freakin test! Well, I am glad that I had a lot of it done before they got here!

We are supposed to all be going to one of the parks on Sat. (I think) but I'm not quite sure what we're going to do. My dad and my uncle have to think for a long time before they make final decisions, and that it fine, but I am a planner, and I need to know (for myself) what is going on. I have to have an idea of what we are going to do! It's kind of annoying not knowing for sure! But that's ok, that's how they do things, think and think and think of a simple answer (to make sure it's a good one) and then they have thought about it so long, it's the AM of when we are going to do stuff. That's just not how I work. I have a tentative schedule always planed out, that's just me!

I'm not obsessive over it though, I just have to have an idea in my head of what we are going to do or what I'm doing and if plans change than fine, but I just have to make sure things get done, and if I'm not able to plan, then it's weird. I'm just a planner/organizer (whatever you wanna call it) I'm a Virgo, I think it comes with the "name" (not that I really go by the whole astrology thing but...there does seem to be some similarity in people born around the same time and all.)

Well anyways, I have class in the AM I should probably get going. Oh yeah did I tell you that Meg has to share my room, until my cousins and everyone are gone, they are staying in her room. And we all know that Megan and I have diff feelings on how "neat" rooms should be (kinda like the whole bday thing I was talking about) So she's sleeping on an air mattress on my floor, it's definitely not comfortable, I mean it's "my space" (I don't mind sharing) but it is a little inconvenient, since she brought a lot of crap with her...She's so funny, she acts, like she can never go in her room, HELLO....her room is across the hall! There's just random things laying around my room and I'm like Megan is it really necessary to have all this not essential stuff in here, she was like "Well, what if I need it?" Oh well, what do you say!? She cracks me up!

We all have to give a little when we have family come and stay, that's fine with me, I understand! I love my family, it's one of the most important things to me, good thing too, since it's such a BIG ONE!! Ok...well, i'm really gonna go now! Since it's technically almost tomorrow!
--I'm out!

Wy just left

So Wy came over. M.C. brought him over about 4:15 and he was here until about 10 mins ago. It was really cool to see him again. He's so cute! He has light pretty much strawberry blonde hair! He's gotten a lot bigger! He's 6 wks and 3 days old. Of course he's still small but not as small as he was before. And as soon as I saw him , HE LOOKS JUST like my brother!!! (well besides the hair color! )

I took a pic (well more than 1) on my camera phone. I want to update me photo page. I'll have to put one of him on this "blog". I went to the store earlier and got a bunch of stuff for him to have here. I got some clothes, and wash clothes, and this cute little "bouncer seat". It bounces and vibrates and has cute little toys that hang down. He really liked it!

And I got his crib all set up it looks so cute! A. bought the cutest little tub at the store and he gave him a bath. How cute!!

It was so great to spend time with him! I know Andrew enjoyed it! I did!

Well we also cleaned a lot this AM to get ready for my cousins next week. My Nanny is bringing my aunt down tomorrow to see the play and Papa is coming too! (Yep she ended up not coming today like she was supposed to) It's ok though because we were with Wyatt and all.

L. and the kids are coming up on Sun to see the play and I think K. and the boys are coming tomorrow too! And then Sun afternoon we take beth to the airport. Yep we only got 1 day with her...but whatever can't do much about that!

Ok, well I'm gonna go, I'm pretty tired. I was just wanted to write about the whole day!
--Later

Agent 99

WOW! I just got back from Meg's play. It was sooo good!! (I sound like Teen Girl Squad) but it was! She did so good. She really did remind me of the "real" 99 on Get Smart the show.

It was really good. It was opening night, there were a couple minor sound glitches but it was pretty good! Although, something happened to the AC so it was burning up!!! All the actors were sweating so bad! Hopefully they'll get it fixed before tomorrow night. I'm gonna go and see it again another night, just not sure which one!

It was really cool though Travis, Kristin, Olivia, Emily, Jack, Renee, Travis V., Amber, Tim, Chris were all there tonight. It was cool that they were all there to support the girls. (rachael, diana, and meg)! We all went to Andy's afterwards and got some shakes, because it was sooo hot!!

Wyatt is supposed to come over tomorrow! I really pray that it works out! I really want to see him!

Beth is supposed to come tomorrow too with Nanny, but I have no clue if it's gonna happen or not. It's so annoying, but whatever happenes I'm just gonna deal with it. It's like we had all these plans and then all of a sudden Nanny doesn't think it'll the best idea to stay here. She said it'll just make things more stressful for us here. Well, so fine whatever. I just don't know.

Honestly the reason I don't think she wants to be here is because of the whole Wyatt situation. I think there are a few people in the family that aren't gonna believe it til the paternity test is done. And ya know what that's fine, but it's just annoying that they can't see that we are accepting it now and maybe THEY should be supportive too. Ya Megan S. wasn't the best person, but it's not like Andrew caught her with someone else. Just because she lied a lot doesn't really give anyone the right to say it's not his. I mean if it's not than we'll deal with it, but the fact is right now we can't just go around and act like he's not his! Because if we did than it would take even longer to bond afterwards.

So anyway that's what I think the real reason she doesnt want to be here. And honestly she doesn't have to be. Beth can come and she can go back home, I think it's pretty sad that she doesn't want to stay and that she can't get over it (like everyone else has) but ya know what she's going to have to sooner or later!

I just don't think that people should put all their hope in the paternity test because it's gonna be even harder if it comes back and it's not the way they were hoping for. But I am just gonna pray about it and let the Lord work it out. That's the only thing to do.

Oh yeah, I went to the mall today and I got these cutest sweaters and I got a new bra. They are so cute! Ok well I'm gonna go watch the rest of ER on TiVo!
--Peace Out!

There might be a little change....

Ok, so I have been thinking a lot lately and I'm not sure if I still want to be an RN. I have all of my pre-recs done for that and I think I want to go back to my original thought of being a speech Pathologist/Audiologist.

Ever since my senior year I just kept going back and forth between the two and I was talking to my dad at lunch today and it just seems like to me that I would like the Speech thing more!

With that I would be working with some of the deaf and I really feel like I have a "calling" for that! I mean my grandparents are deaf and I just have always had a place in my heart for that.

I mean I've been thinking about it and maybe it's not a coincidence that I "forgot" to sign up again for the program, and that I didn't get in even though I was on the back-up list last time. I just think that maybe that's a sign. I was praying the other day and I asked God to give me a sign about which He want's me to do, and the more I think about it the more I feel like changing and then all of a sudden today it came to me about that stuff not being a coincidence. So I dunno....we'll see...I'm gonna go talk to one of the advisors soon and see what they have to say.

Ok that's it.
--Peace

Nothing really....

So today I just went to class and that's about it! I went to lunch with my dad and got this stuff to give to Megan after the play tomorrow!

Not really anything else going on. I'm working on this "take home test" for Micro. Have to find a whole bunch of stuff. And just getting ready for the net 2 weeks of company and Megan's play tomorrow. I don't know if I mentioned it or not but Megan got a part in the school play, they are doing "Get Smart" and she's Agent 99. Andrew and I use to watch the reruns of it along time ago when we were little. It should be pretty good! She'll do great I'm so proud of her! Ya know, she is the "leading lady".

Ok well if anything new happens, I'll let you know! Oh yeah I did work with that guy again last night. See I just don't know. Sometimes I can't tell if he's flirting with me or what...I just don't know him well enough to figure out what it is.....I'm just not even gonna worry about any of that right now, who knows....I just don't know about the whole dating people in this stupid town, it's so small that pretty much everyone knows everyone else one way or another and that is kinda annoying!

--I'm out

God is Good!!!!

I can't even tell you how happy/excited I am right now. The Lord is so amazing!!! They just had the emergency hearing. And my brother was granted visitation for Tues, Fri and Sat's for 8 hrs!!! That is so amazing!!! And it starts this weekend!!! So we get to have Wyatt here with all the family here for the play!!! I am just so excited!!!

All the prayers and everything were so wonderful! If you just give it to the Lord and not try to control it yourself, it ends up working out and today sure has showed me that even more!!! All the support of everyone is just great!

It's been 5 weeks since I've seen my nephew and I get to see him!!! I can't wait!!!! Praise the Lord!!!!!! I can't even express how I feel!!! I was in the middle of going through my Micro notes and I can't even concentrate! So I just stopped, I'll get back to that later!

I'm just gonna go ahead and get ready for work now and eat and then go get the newspaper because apparently my sis's in it!!! (my little star) I just had to come on here and post because I'm so excited!!! There were so many things that could've gone against us "legally" but her attorney didn't even seems to know that....Andrew's attorney was pretty much setting them up to be disappointed, and it's definitely a "God thing" that allowed it to go so well! PTL!!!
--Yippie!!!!!!

Just another Manic Monday....

So things(I think) are FINALLY starting to get back to normal, from all the hurricanes and everything.....and now that they are back to "normal" its crazy!!! There is so much going on. I had been able to sleep in all the time and everything and now I have all this stuff going on. Not complaining by any means its just crazy how it likes the last couple weeks have just gotten so crazy/busy.

So I started a post last night after I got home from small group....Well, I started posting and then Alexis called and said she had to stay over here again...So when she got here I had to stop because I can't really type my post on here with an "audience"......

Let's see what's new......So this whole thing with this guy at work I'm not sure about....I can't tell what he thinks about the whole thing...........like I said before I just don't "get him". So next time we work together I'll have to try and she how it goes...I did see him the other night when I was up at work. He kinda went out of his way to stop and talk to me when I was leaving....asking about where I was headed(he didn't exactly say it that way but).....ya know what I mean. So I dunno.

So today I had to wake-up and get ready for work before class, and as soon as class was over I had to go to work. I was there from like 10:30-like 4. Then had to go home and finish some work that I had to turn into class tonight.

Well tomorrow is the whole hearing thing. I have just keep praying that the Lord will work it out for us. And I know there is a whole bunch of people praying too! I know though, that whatever happens is was for a reason. I don't know what exactly is going to go on....but I just have this since of knowing that "it'll be ok"....and that it will work out one way or the other.

Oh yeah...I just remembered one of the things that I was writing in my post last night. I got an email from Jess last night. She was just kinda "updating" me on how she was doing and everything. See....we don't really talk other than these little like update emails things that we do every-so-often. Of course my email was like a freakin novel because of all that has happened since our last correspondence( which was only like 5 weeks ago)

So, she said that her and Jimmy are still not together anymore. It is actually pretty crazy that they aren't together, because they had been together for soooo long. It's weird to imagine. She just said that she FINALLY realized that he wasn't right for her. I wish I knew what it was that made her FINALLY realize that but I don't know if I will ever know. But I did tell her that I was glad she realized that and kinda elaborated about the whole situation from a long time ago. Just about that it was so hard to support her being with him and know that she was better than him....I tried to say it in a way that would be good but I just don't know how she will take it. Emails can be so hard to read emotion. I did tell her that I didn't mean it in a bad/or mean(or whatever) way at all. So we'll see what she says...she doesn't have her own computer so it takes her longer to get to checking her email and stuff.

So things have been kinda hectic lately and with Alexis having to come over a lot to stay was starting to become not a hassle, but just kinda inconvenient. But I God really impressed it on my heart that this is happening for a reason, (that's my all time life motto or quote or whatever you call it) but it's like ya know I was thinking about it and Alexis and I were talking....and we found out that we have so much in common. I haven't known her that long, so it was cool to see that we had a lot of little things in common. (like movies we liked when we were younger and stuff. But also, God allowed me to see that there is more that she needs help with than just a place to stay. She has a lot of things going on and there is some things that I am really looking forward to talking to her about.

So I think thats probably about it. Oh yeah one more thing, the other day when I was on day 27 in my book, it was just really cool.....I really got a lot from that Day, it was defeating temptation. It was talking about specifically temptation, but you could also bring it to being more than that. It was saying that if you are tempted to do something instead of thinking over and over man I can't believe I just thought, or whatever....just change what you are thinking about. It goes the same with worrying about things, and since there are so many things right now that I could focus on to worry about it seems to really have allowed me to get things done instead of just worrying about them. I dunno it's just cool!

Oh have to mention the Broncos FINALLY stepped things up yesterday! I was starting to get very frustrated with them...so I'm glad they won!!!! Next week is a BYE week so....don't get to see them...but then the 21st is @ New Orleans and we better win...they are 3-5 and we are 6-3 so....we better get it done!It's funny because on Thurs, @ work Eric and I were talking about how I was getting annoyed with them. And how Plummer keeps basically throwing the ball strait to the other team. I mean geeze...but the did great sun! It was like they heard us! (I'm sure we weren't the only wons talking about it) But don't get my wrong I love Plummer he's an awesome quarterback, he was just having a hard time....It over know though!! (it better be)

Ok well I think I'm gonna go read day 30! Wow, I can't believe there's only 10 days left. This book, is so amazing!
----later

ummmmmm I dunno

So....kind of a long day. I got woken up this am with a call from my neighbor wanting me to watch her daughter (home sick from school) for a couple hours. I couldn't say no under the circumstances (long story but her mom had to take her grandpa to surgery) her dad had to work a couple hours.

So I watched her. Its not like just watching any kid....I have known her since she was born....kinda like a little sister (shes almost 10).

Her dad ended up getting home in just enough time for me to get home and dressed, etc...and go to work.

Yeah........about work....so there is this new guy that works with me....I'm not too sure about him....I dunno its weird. I can't even say what I mean....because I don't even know! I promised him and a couple other people I'd go out with them after work. It was ok...It just so happened to be karaoke geeze it was kinda fun when they actually played some good songs, but geeze the freakin drunk people all it can say is owww it hurt...funny but it hurt.

One of the most acquired things is when someone is trying to play matchmaker. Ya know...." so I really think that you and so and so "click" blah blah blah" is it just me or does that just drive you crazy? I mean yeah so you think we might click but geeze, I just don't see why people think that they have to step in and start things for people.

I dunno...I guess I'm still just a shy little girl...HA HA....I just don't know....I mean this guy seems pretty cool, from what I know about him. I dont really know that much, and thats the problem. It's just weird, its like I don't wanna think hey maybe this guy would be cool to hang out with sometime but then its like geeze...I don't even wanna think like that because I guess its just hard for me give up control like that. By just letting my emotions out like that into something not secure it's just weird.

I was so tired tonight but I went anyway because he kept saying I had to go. I just don't know how to "read it" thats why I say I don't "get him. " We joke around and stuff but I dunno.

Well I think I've said "I dunno" like 20 different times, I am so freakin tired and yet I'm still here typing...Ok yeah I know I'm tired but its like I'm trying to figure it out and ya know what it's not gonna happen right now, I know that but it drives me crazy, I wish I could just be like so...whats going on?

Is there something going on or what? But no thats not me. I just gotta sit there right next to him and just kinda talk and graze his knee, look into his eyes......OH GEEZE I sound like I'm 12! Ya know what that doesnt matter. I know I am not as experienced with the whole relationship thing. Growing up I just didnt really care either way. I went out with a couple guys here and there, but nothing serious. I haven't ever had a serious relationship. I'm fine with that, but it just makes it different ya know. And especially not really knowing him at all. And the whole group factor was a little weird, I mean even if I was flirting with him a little bit...geeze there were like 5 other people sitting around the table too(including his brother who just showed up out of no where....I should introduced myself but I didnt) it was hard to talk because it was so loud.

You know thinking back about it we were all trying to figure out where to go and a couple of the people we all just taking their time and stuff and he was just like man we just go somewhere without them.(to me) And of course I just kinda acknowledged it but not really because it was weird for me and didnt know what to say...I know I sound stupid...but whatever! So what does that mean...

Well who knows whats going on. I don't work with him again until next week so i dunno. (opps there it is again)

And yet I'm still typing...ok seriously I gotta go. I have class tomorrow and thinking about this now isn't going to make a difference.
--woes me...

It's SO ANNOYING!!!!!!!

OK, there is a certain blog that I visit frequently. Well I was just there a minute ago and geeze it's driving me crazy....

Ok, so you wanna know where the WMD's are.....He said they didnt find them....Um...ever think that some were blown up in all those bridges that were blown up when our soldiers first got in Iraq? AND WHAT ABOUT THIS....(I heard someone say this example and if you can argue with it THAN YOU"RE CRAZY and I don't wanna talk to you anyway! :o)

Ok....So let's say there is a 15 year old boy who is in a situation where a cop comes up to him and the boy for one reason or another, pulls out a very real-looking gun (it's actually fake but at that point no one knows it) and points it at the officer and acts to shoot it. If this boy does this and the officer pull his gun out and shoots him; is the policeman in the wrong because he didn't know the gun wasn't real until after the boy was shot? UMM...NO...he had to shoot the boy because if he hadn't and the boy's gun was real than he would've been shot!

I tell you this story because it is the same thing for why we were looking for the WMD in Iraq. We thought they were there, had reports they were there....if we didn't go and see than we wouldn't have known and ended up being responsible for that (and I'm sure "they" would be blaming THAT on us)

So I don't wanna hear any crap about WHERE are the weapons. AHHH that drives me crazy.

I know this story will probably not make a difference in what "they" think but it is logical and if you are too ignorant to realize that than that's YOUR PROBLEM! "They" just keep making up things to blame Bush for and it drives me crazy. No he's not perfect, but when you ask for an opinion and it is given and then you won't take the answer for what it is then again....YOUR CRAZY!!!!

Oh and one more thing. I don't EVEN wanna hear:

"They blame 9/11 for the economy - HELLO, 9/11 HAPPENED WHILE BUSH WAS PRESIDENT."

For one thing I never blamed the economy for 9-11, it has gotten so much better than it was when Clinton was president, the other thing is you can't blame BUSH for what happened on 9-11 because he hadn't even been in office that long. HELLO why isn't Clinton responsible for any of that cray if we were pointing fingers?

Ok enough of that....I just read that blog and usually when there isn't "political" talk than I LOVE the blog but I was sick of the crap that she keeps saying, so since I don't actually fill like commenting to her blog I decided to comment here. (no I'm not scared to comment I just think it's pointless...she won't listen anyway and this is where I put all my thoughts and everything so there ya go!)

I gotta go do the rest of that paper.
--Later

Watching the President speak today was so cool! Here's the Bush Family right after the speech... 

Kerry calls PRESIDENT BUSH to concede....FINALLY!!!!! WOOOHOOO!!! 

FOUR MORE YEARS!!!!!!

Thank You Lord!!!! Our prayers were answered! Wow...I can't believe how many votes the President received! "BUSH BREAKS ALL-TIME POPULAR VOTE TOTAL, SURPASSING REAGAN..."(http://drudgereport.com) That is just amazing! I stayed up until about 2:15 this am watching the news, and listening to Glenn Beck (http://glennbeck.com ). It was my first election and I wanted to be able to see how it all worked out.

I'm so excited! I had to wake up and go to class at 8:00 and wow I wasn't even tired just wanted to stay home and wait for Kerry to finally give-up(opps...I mean concede) and He did! I can't wait to see Bush's speech! He finally gets to have a victory speech!

Man I have a paper I'm supposed to be writing, right now and I can't even concentrate! It's due Friday!!

Michael (my friend Diana's lil brother) had to have his appendix removed yesterday. He was pretty sick. I ordered him a cookie basket and am waiting to take it to him. Hopefully it'll be done soon.

Well I better get going I gotta do this freakin' paper!!!
--I'm out

DRUDGE CALLED IT!!!!

Drudge called BUSH WINS!!!!!! http://drudgereport.com/ WOOOHOOO!!!!!!

Election Day

And the "madness" begins! So there has already been some crazy junk going on. Some have said that in Philadelphia there were machines that possibly had votes on them before the polls were even opened this am. And then I heard about this guy in Ohio that went to vote and went to show the lady his ID and she said that it wasn't necessary. It ended up being that someone had already voted under his name and forged his signature.

So that's crazy. I have been praying for the election all day! My mom emailed me this...it is from her daily desk calendar...the Bible verse for today was: ".... With God all things are possible." Mark 10:27 so that's pretty cool.

Well we'll see what happens as the day goes on.
--GO VOTE!!!!!!(Bush)

One of the 3 hurricanes that "visited" us this year. 

Just a few hours ...

and the voting will begin! Odviously from the other post I have already voted but it's definately going to be something! I am planning on keeping the news on to see whats going on until I have to go to work. Ya know this is the first time I've voted and this is such a crazy election and so important. I jsut want to be able to see what actually goes on. And now that everyone has to fight about everything, it might take awhile to figure out who really wins! After that 'Bin Laden' tape that was released the other day I don't see how anyone could see that Kerry is the right one for the job.

I have been praying for the election! Man that's pretty much all we can do. And of course remind EVERYONE to vote!

So I took another micro test today! I hope I did ok. It seemed SO long! Now I have to write a paper for my History class that is due on Fri. and then BETH (my aunt) is coming Sat! I can't wait to see her! We are going to this really nice sushi place after she gets in.

So Megan Courtney came back to work on Fri. She didn't say one word to me anytime I saw her. I didn't say anything either. At this point I'm just not sure what to say to her. I mean "Hi how are you, how is my nephew that you are not allowing us to see doing?" thats just not something that is appropriate to discuss at work. So I figured I'd just not say anything at all. The hearing is on the 9th so God willing that will make a difference. That's another thing I've been praying about, that the Lord's will, will be done.

Well I'm gonna go read Day 23 in the Purpose Driven Life.
--GO VOTE....or don't complain